Those Other Thoughts

Yes, cliche name, but everything has to have a start. I've been writing a book, and have wanted to make it a series since i ever thought of the idea of the book. The more I go into the book, and the more I think of the other books in the series, I began to see a repetition. That being, the main character is following the footsteps of my life. The difference you may ask? It's the alternative of my life, or what the other road i didn't choose. And now, as i think about my life, I begin to question what my life would've been if i took the other road. So now im resorting to tumblr to find my answers. The answers I make in my book is just what I think would happen, or wish to happen. Now it's time to see if it's right or not

Jan 8

I don’t know how to feel

I can’t believe this is how we ended. Not from one of us cheating or not loving each other, but because you’re father felt that I wasn’t “sincere” enough. I am a fucking gentlemen! I go to college, which I am in the fucking honors program, know what I want to do with my life, have a job, a great family. The only thing I don’t have is a car, but that doesn’t sway if someone is a man or a boy, but the character. If anything, the fact that I had the balls to come to your house to talk to you about your daughter knowing that you could’ve put a gun to my face, called my dad or grandparents, threatened my life, ANYTHING, and still had the courage to look at you in the eye and call you sir as a sign of respect as my elder and girls father? And I’m not sincere? Who the fuck are you to say that! You only knew me as, “My Daughter’s Best Friends Brother”. I’m a fucking gentlemen! If you don’t approve me, there’s no man you’ll approve because your daughter can never find someone like me again, there’s no duplicate. The other problem is, I had a dream I’d have this outcome, and my dreams normally tell my future. The time I try to rewrite it and I failed. As angry as I am, I can’t do anything about it. You want nothing to do with me and your daughter so I’ll respect you for one more time and leave your daughter alone… Yet again someone told me I wasn’t good enough. Only makes me feel like my parents didn’t raise me right and I’ve been heading in the wrong direction. Thanks for being that guy….asshole…..

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