Those Other Thoughts

Yes, cliche name, but everything has to have a start. I've been writing a book, and have wanted to make it a series since i ever thought of the idea of the book. The more I go into the book, and the more I think of the other books in the series, I began to see a repetition. That being, the main character is following the footsteps of my life. The difference you may ask? It's the alternative of my life, or what the other road i didn't choose. And now, as i think about my life, I begin to question what my life would've been if i took the other road. So now im resorting to tumblr to find my answers. The answers I make in my book is just what I think would happen, or wish to happen. Now it's time to see if it's right or not

Jan 13

Why do I question myself…

just for upsetting those around me? My life on earth wasn’t to please everyone I come in contact with, nor will I physically be able to, but I seem to take these things so personally. I was filled with ignorance and never bothered to come out of it, and for this reason I’ve not been a true friend. It sucks to think that who I call a brother and someone I support for making such a decision to fight for my rights I can’t even return the favor and be there, well now I can because I got the right things I needed to talk to him, but before I was in ignorance. But I feel that even if I contact him I won’t be a true friend, but just someone who got called out and who is trying to fix things…do I even bother to still call him a friend? I don’t know. I feel bad now, and of course it’s right before I go back to school…

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